Reluctant but Helpless~~~

This week I've made a hard decision---I left the dance crew!! I feel so upset.. yet I feel helpless..

Before that, I really found my passion in dancing!! Gonna burn the dance floor~~ yet I still have it nw!! But due to time,financial and studies, I need to give up 1 of the 3 things--- which the 3 things are

1)studies--- my future
2)PASSION OF DANCING--- my greatest passion, my greatest interest, my greatest hobby
3)Job--- my financial resources for my expenses

After seeing this list, I stil can't stop thinking.. I've been thinking to have a final decision for several weeks!!! It's really hard!! I know this has brought some misunderstandings between us, but for me, I still love dancing, but I'm not lucky enough to have the time & financial to support me... haiz...

I finally got my salary today!! ^^ After calculating all the "fixed" expenses that will incur, if I continue my hobby, I only left RM200-RM300 to survive for 1 month!! And the most "sui" 1 is!!!!====> the study time is MONDAY n WEDNESDAY!!! Totally clashed!!... =(

Really.. I dunno how.. I wanna keep my promise, but...I couldn't sacrifice my studies.."they" definitely OBJECTION~~...haiz...

Well, my article seems a bit messy.. not well organised.. but today I dunno how to orgnanise this articles.. I just write it very naturally.. write out what has been kept in my heart..

Miss u guys!! Miss those performances!!---though I'm still the fattest gal within!!! argghh~~~ =(

I feel so confused actually.. Y I was treated a lil worse than others? haizz.. god!! tell me why?? Haiz.. I can't continue.. dunno why.. tho problem is solved.. but I stil feel upset..

Really... things can't happen like what we always wish for.. god created the opposite situation from wat we wish.. to make we learn how to solve the problem? But why some can get what they wish, but I can't? Why??

When I was young n was a kid, I dance, since then it became my greatest passion.. even it's greater than my study interest... STUDY NEVER IS MY INTEREST.. Young.. I was offered chances to perform!! But "they" can't make it for me.. caused me dreaming of joining dance crew!! Today , again I was offered a chance to perform!! I take it!! I don't wanna lose the chance!! I really don't want.. so I TAKE& GRAB IT !!

But, nw, everything's going opposite for me.. forcing me to put down.. tho, my dreams came true for just 2 months!! A very very very short 2 months!! That feeling comes back again~! haizz... this sucks man...~~....don't like that feeling..

Always support you guys!!! I will be back for classes!! CHEERS!!!